Mess....

I feel like a mess.

AF has not shown. And I've tested 5 times..BFN's.

I'm pissed off, irritated and upset. I have NEVER had a wonky cycle in 17 years and the month I want to start TTC, my body decides to screw with my mind.

Thank you uterus, you hateful, hateful organ.

I feel like I'm losing my mind.

Work is crappy right now and this move has me stressed out for reasons I don't understand. I should be happy and I am happy but I just want it to be over.

I'm crying over stupid shit. I feel like I'm losing control. I'm crying and I don't know why.

I really don't know why I feel this way but I feel like a mess.

I hope this passes soon because I hate feeling this way. If I at least understood why, it would make it better.

I'm so tired. I haven't slept in two weeks. That isn't helping I know because I'm a person that needs my sleep or I simply don't function.

I wish I could take a day off and take it for myself. Not think about anything or do anything or worry about anything. A true mental health day.

Either my hormones are way out of whack or the stress is breaking me down.

I just need to go to bed.